i'm broken

Posted at 15:31h :

Posted at 15:31h :
i want to feel the way
you make me feel when
im with you i want
to be the only hand
you need to hold onto

Posted at 10:12h : What was i thinkin`....? Oh i knew thered be hell to pay But that crossed my mind a little too late
i didnt go to school today. i knew last night i wasnt gonna feel to good this morning. that chinese food was a bad idea. but now i feel fine and i wana get outta here badly.

so yeah i can't go to bowling tonight because my mom thinks that im over here dying or something. eh oh well. i said i didnt wana go back there, guess i better watch out what i wish for...

Posted at 22:40h : after school mike got me and we went to the alley. my time there wasnt as good as i want my mondays there but hey you cant have a good day every time. =)

i ended up taking three really good pictures of the signs outside at the alley. im happy with how they turned out. i want to borrow the camera again tomorrow so that i can take more pics during leauge cause i didnt get any of the pictures that i wanted to get. =\ eh oh well. maybe tomorrow i'll get some similar to what i was hoping for.

time for some well deserved sleep. well more like time laying in my bed watching tv but you get the idea

Posted at 16:31h : its monday and its almost monday night *yay!* this is the one night a week where i can go to the alley walk around, laugh, talk, and have a good old time with the guys and not have to worry about if im up or not. =) so yeah.

what to wear. what to wear. i wont have a fiasco like i did the last monday night that i went so im not gonna be like "hey my name's lauren but you're not interested in looking at my face now are ya...?"

and no more puppet conversations please please please. save me the annoyance!

Posted at 12:36h : drew didnt come get me this morning and yet again i missed the bus so i had to drive myself to school in my wonderoud purple tanker. <3 its blissfully fun to drive now. stick and all. i didnt roll down the hill so i was happy about that but yehh. uhm tonight im goin to the alley to take pics for my graphics project and to talk 2 ppl and chill around and get out of the house.

sorry mom but i AM going.

x0x0 <3

Posted at 22:37h : while sitting in the car in the driveway. which i drove. because mike is amazing and trusts me with driving his car. we were listening to B98.5 and i heard this song and i go 'hey i know this!' it was Nothing But Excuses - Real World how in holy hell did they get on the radio. thats the only song her voice sounds decent in. scouts honor. i will never see them live again. -barf-



March 19
Rollway Skating Rink
10$ includes food & drink
Stirr Charged [w/ new bassist NICO GRANDE] and others..

GO BITCH <3

Posted at 22:34h : I am Princess Sunshine and the crown is mine bitch.

jk x0x0 & all my violent love <3

Posted at 22:30h : Mike came & got me & we went to olive garden round 4ish. i got calamari. omfg <333 it was so good. i had ministrone soup as well. yum yum. then we went from echelon allllllllll the way to the bowling alley and i bowled for pierre & he bowled for randy, who was bowling next to us so it was nice to not have to walk back up and down to talk with him.

jamie was running around checking out the guys there. she's so adorable. she made me chase her around the gumball machine like 7 times. its okay though, gets the heart pumping.

x0x0

Posted at 22:25h : <3 my '94 beauty on 4 wheels <3
My car isn't sick anymore =) yaay! it got brand new front tires today and a brand new muffler and it drives like a dream =) mom's taking to get it detailed on wednesday and it will purr like a kitten then...so fresh and so clean clean!

Posted at 22:23h : Steeeve.....!
Steve thank you so much for being there for me last night. I needed someone to talk to and calm me down and you did just that. I owe you big time dear!!! but seriously, i dont know what i would have done if you hadnt had been there to talk to. thank you so much =) you better keep to your word. we're hanging out this week one day and you're not allowed to back out ;]

Posted at 1:05h : i need to just sit and cry my eyes out, like i felt like doing an hour ago. your words were so friendly but 48 hours from now you'll be my enemy again and thats not fair to me damnit, when you actually talk to me it makes me feel so wonderful inside like i have my best friend back but then reality sets in and i realize that i will never have my best friend back. do you realize how much i fucking miss you do you realize how much i used to fucking care!? you act like such an asshole to me now but still from everything we ever had i still fucking miss our frienship. i dont even know what happened and you dont have the decency to explain to me why you act the way you do. i wish you'd just take ten minutes out of your life to explain to me why you cause me to sit in my room and cry as to why we dont even talk anymore. its so hard to always wonder and have you talk to me once a month in class. its just not fair to be teased by you with words once a month. i sit at home bored on days and i remember how when i used to be bored you'd ride your dirtbike over and we'd watch XXX downstairs and wrestle and just lay there talking having a good old time and i miss that so much. you'll never understand how much i treasure the frienship that we had. you'll never understand how much i miss what we had before. you were my best friend and i cared about you so much and i would have done anything for you and the pathetic thing is that i still would. tell me how much ive changed i dont care. id still give my life to save yours any day thats how much i still care about you. you used to say bff i guess forever has ended on your side.

Posted at 15:56h : i really do not like people who don't even know me and try to make people think i have intentions of the like which i do not have. you don't know me and you don't know what i am thinking so please don't try to make others believe things that you yourself are only making up in your head. i know you will never see this but i just have to say it. i just dont understand why people in general feel the need to make things seem more complicated than they really are.

there may be two people who read this that have any idea what that is about without me saying anything to them. so if you're one of the people that understands that please comment because now things are being thought by others that have nothing to do with the real truth of the situation.

Posted at 14:31h : cowboy take me away fly this girl as high as you can into the wild blue
( bold what applies to you )

Posted at 14:13h : 01. go to google image search
02. type in your first name only
03. find your favorite one and post it in your journal
stolen from july__5th

( hehe dis is funnie )


all 11 hours of sleep felt amazing =)

i want to do something tonight

Posted at 21:56h : i went tanning today after school. oh fucking shit am i red!!! i bought 2 new outfits <3 they are sooooo cute. i <3 them. it came to 134$ for both! i was like OMFG. but my mommy loves me and caved in and i gave her 30$ from my stash of money.

i gotta go get ready. mike and i are going to see starsky and hutch. oh man we worked out today and then it turned into wrestle mania. it was very tiring i thought i was going to die! all over the friggen pair of shoes, how pathetic are we...!? hehe MICHAEL I LOVEITH THOU!!!. I SHALL BUY YOU NEW SHOE LACES...I PROMISE!!!! =) ahh my body acccchhheeess.


time to bounce

'tick tock tick tock...'

Posted at 19:25h : i grew balls, well its more like i borrowed them, but anyways. i asked someone to prom & now im just waiting til he thinks it over and gives me his answer.


tonight is going to be a long night

Posted at 15:24h : my body huurrrttts. mostly my back and shoulders from lifting the weights and the sit and row but damn, i didnt know lifting made you hurt this much =\ oh well it will make me nice and fit -does the arnold arm thing- "im going to PUMP UP!!" haha. okay enough of that

school was so lame today. we had a fire drill 8th period and it was chilly out =\

DREW GOT PULLED OVER. omg we're driving home and we pass jenna who's puled over by a cop and jim yells out the window JENNNAAAAA and the cop called another cop down the street who snagged us for careless driving and disrupting another officer and then drew gave him the liscence & registration and his insurance was expired so now he owes $176 to the waterford thingy and he has court on the 25th. i feel so bad for him =\

time to go do some choores..or something...other than what i should be doing.

Posted at 20:49h : BoKer137: ur a chickin shit

you're damn right i'm a chicken shit. its not even like its that big of a deal but it just seems so easy that it CANT be that simple and that it would turn into some big huge confusing torturous event that would be ruined for me just like it was last year.

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i got my hair done today. it looks nice =) i also signed up for a month of tanning today @ the new place in town. the guy who worked there was really nice and i guess he thought i didnt know how to work the stuff so he had to do his job and show me every single do-dad on the machine but i sat there patiently and waited till he was done. i didnt get red or anything but now my back is all red and in major pain =\ ow ow ow. then i came home and went to the bowling alley. BUT...i didnt bowl or watch bowling. i was in the back with mike working out. my arms are all in pain and shaking a bit. its okay though i will live!

Posted at 9:01h : im chillin in garaphics class. its pretty lame.

people keep sayin i look so much like hilary duff today cuz my hair is scrunched! i dont think i do but ill take the compliment any day =)

xoxo
always
laur


ooh yeah

operation prom date is underway


btw. X UNIT!!!!

Posted at 22:26h : 204 for me. after bowling we went and got chinese food. yum yum. it was me mike matt and mom. before bowling me n mike went to the deptford mall. I SAW CHRIS SPOLETTI. I almost died, it was hilarious.

anyways im all out of order and tired so im out.

im ungrounded so comment if u wana chill this weekend.

Jess & Robin - HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Posted at 20:25h : YOU MANIPULATIVE SON OF A BITCH!! DONT YOU EVER SAY THE FUCKING WORD LOVE TO ME AGAIN. COMING FROM YOUR MOUTH IT HAS NO MEANING ANYMORE!

okay. *Big Deep Breath* I'm okay now =) I have a feeling this update is going to be pretty long.

Yesterday: I went to the bowling alley and subbed for Pierre. It was alot of fun. Dave & Jim were there to give me lots of laughs. I shot 182, 182, 184, & because i beat 180 every game i made the press which means i get my name in the paper on sunday and i'll be in some tourny @ the end of the year and mike says if you win it you get money. more money for me =) ha cha cha!! I ended up fighting with my mom about going out to dinner with Jim & Dave but she can go fuck herself for all i care. it was CHINESE BUFFET for crying out loud! Who in their right mind passes up CHINESE BUFFET. My mom that's who. After I got home i ended up wanting to do the slice and dice on a certain ex-boyfriends testicals but yeah. i wont go there right now because im in a tad of a good mood and i'm not letting him fuck it up. kthx. then i talked to mike for an hour or so and went to sleep. then an hour later at 1:45 Carmen calls me and wakes me up. i was so out of it i didnt even realize it was my fone ringing it was funny.

Today: I woke up to the most annoying alarm clock. Please, save yourself. DONT PURCHASE THE SPONGEBOB ALARM CLOCK THAT SINGS THE THEME SONG. it made me want to repeatedly puncture my jugular and bleed to death. it was a horrid thing to wake up to. History was a bore. Graphics was the same old thing. Gym - Badmitton <3 FUN SHIT. me n christina played against kevin and frank sacco. it was fun stuff. pottery party on wednesday. pizza turnover and dr pepper <3 yum physics is easy now! *yay* math - is just dumb and easy. english - its poetry. its an automatic A for me with poetry. hollie picked me up from school and we went to the echelon mall. we played with the puppies and got really good fruit smoothies! we both bought the story of the year cd. ahh i love having my own copy cuz now i dont have to steal it from jenn :) then we went to some tanning place by the mall. i have a tan line after the first time! ROCK ON. i wanna go back there it was a nice place and cheap as hell, only 3 bills. then i came home and somehow managed to not get in trouble.

Today: Im trying to get mike to cut his last class. Im such a bad influence on him =) but yeah. i wana go cause some mischeif before bowling tomorrow cause tuesdays always suck major balls until bowling.

oh yeah

IM STILL PROM DATELESS =(



always,
laur

Posted at 14:43h : today's been pretty unproductive. i have to bowl for pierre tonight so that's a plus.

tomorrow i get to see what i missed in school on friday. FUCK i just remembered i have to make up that damn hspa science shit. after school im goin to the mall w/ Hollie [Dave's g/f]. She's got brand new plastic and ive got $71 so combined we're gonna be able to do some nice damage lol

time to go clean my closet. [ahhh] and take a shower.

always,
laur

Posted at 1:16h : IM RICH BITCH!!
Who's $60.00 richer? I'm $60.00 richer. I thought I was bowling like crap but I ended up doing really well. I even shot a 222 without any no-tap strikes! Dave owes me twice now ;]

Mike burnt me the three disk set 80's Pop Hits. It's so great! Right now im listening to ( Phil Collins - Shes An Easy Lover ) the beat is absolutely great i love the song already and its the first time i've ever heard it.

The tournament was great. My lanes had me, jim strickler, chris rea, randy, rusty, this couple, and a few other people. Well let me tell you, i dont think ive ever come so close to almost peeing my pants so many times!!

Oh yeah, that guy Adam finally started to actually talk to me tonight. It was much nicer to have him stare at me and talk to me than the normal just staring with no words, cause that was really creepy!

I may be bowling for Pierre tomorrow, *YAY!!* Another day with Jim Strickler is well needed from my 10 days of grounding so far =) OH YEAH, my grounding is changed. I'm allowed out on the weekends as long as i do my chores and dont yell at my mom during the week. oh well, i'll take that over normal grounding any day =)

time to go lay in bed & wait for mike to get out of work so we can chit-chat for a while.

speaking of mike..the girl from the couple on my lane asked me how my boyfriend was and i looked at her like she was nuts! well she points up to mike and says aren't you dating him? I said nahh mike and i are just friends. she was like oh i saw you two walking through the mall together shopping so i figured you were. I wasnt surprised she asked me. I get asked all the time if we're dating. but the answer's always the same, =) nope he's my best friend and to me that's more important!

mhm time for tv!

xoxo <3


[the same entry is in my blurty]

Posted at 11:08h : seeecond team OCAS!!!
To the parents of Lauren Roussin,

Congratulations! your daughter, Lauren had been selected for recognition as a member of the second team Olympic Conference All Star in bowling.

Theres more to the letter but who cares! woop woop! HAh damn. Ms tapp told me i would have had first team but i was absent too many times. OH well. im happy with second team =)

( What's your inner eye color? I GOT GREEN <3 )

I think i should get offline and go do some wash. then i should clean my room up and then i should do the dishes. I REALLY WANA GO TONIGHT =\

always,
laur